simple.
i hate the fact that im getting worse,i was trying to recover,now im making myself more sick.
i cant stand to see my fat ugly face and body in the mirror now.i cant even bring myself to eat during the day now,i cant eat in front of anyone but my own family. i cry myself to sleep. i cry over any little thing. im depressed again.
my cousin has gone away for 2 weeks,i cant cope without a text or a phone call,i rely on her for. i dont talk to her about my issues,i gave up talking to her,when i made her cry one evening telling her how i felt. she just makes me feel a little better when i speak to her!
im a fucking joke.
im a mess.
im a failure.
I love you sweetie! I am here to talk to you know :) Always. Your a very beautiful girl and I wish you could see that, you deserve recovery. You reaally are thin enough now. I'm here for you x x x x
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