this week.

this week,i have doctors tomorrow and my driving test thursday!
im so stressed and nervous!
wish me luck!!!
xoxo

the new dress

my extra small dress.

XS

i bought an extra small dress today and it fits :D pic will be up tomorrow...so happy right now...!!!

i give up.

simple.

i hate the fact that im getting worse,i was trying to recover,now im making myself more sick.
i cant stand to see my fat ugly face and body in the mirror now.i cant even bring myself to eat during the day now,i cant eat in front of anyone but my own family. i cry myself to sleep. i cry over any little thing. im depressed again.
my cousin has gone away for 2 weeks,i cant cope without a text or a phone call,i rely on her for. i dont talk to her about my issues,i gave up talking to her,when i made her cry one evening telling her how i felt. she just makes me feel a little better when i speak to her!

im a fucking joke.
im a mess.
im a failure.

my new dress :)

:)

Cry baby!!

im currently crying over nothing...NOTHING!! im such a freak. think its time to call the doctors :/
:(

em xoxo

Scales.

i really hope my scales are wrong or broken..i weigh myself once a week and if the scales are correct today i've put on 2lb! ;( i want to cry! ive done so well this week aswell..i really dont know why i haven't lost :(


em xoxo